This Way
Monday, May 11, 2009
I hate when I feel this way. Like I'm not good enough; and I never will be. Like everything in your life is just a lie. My emotions are in fucking overdrive and I'm not even on my period. Something in me triggered a dangerous spiral of disaster (am I sounding emo yet? Very much so).
I kind of feel like being myself just isn't good enough anymore. Like I need to add a little umph into my personality. Like I'm so boring that no one wants to hang out with me. When did I get like this? WTF triggered this shit? UGH!
My whole body hurts. My arms, legs, feet, back. I have a headache. Why? Probably because of work. I really need to get out of Walmart. I think it's slowly killing me.
So I've been crying. I don't know why. I just have been and my eyes hurt now because of it. I don't know what's wrong with me. I think I need therapy or something. Or a brand new teddy bear. I think I need a new bear.
I'm going to go before this post just becomes random spastic words that don't go together. Later days.
-- RAWR! it means iloveyou in dinosaur --
3:26 AM
